April 29, 2008
Words of wisdom, huh? I’m a leaf to a lot of people I know, sometimes I’m the branch. I can’t be a root to everyone I know, but I hope I’m a good root to all the ones I really care about. I gotta realize that the one I’m after right now? He’s just a leaf. He’s just seasonal. I got someone with me who’s LIFE-worthy, you know? He’s my root. When I go crazy he settles me down. When he’s rumbling with frustration, I calm him down.
What are you? A leaf, a branch, a tree?
Let’em go!
April 28, 2008
So much easier said than done.
I have a friend that I love, but I don’t seem to get the same kind of love back. Sometimes I just want to give up and stop loving him. The problem is that I can’t! For some odd reason, when he asks for favors or whatnot, I do them without even thinking about it.
“Hey! Are you home? I need a place to crash before I eat dinner with some friends.”
“Oh, I’m home – sure come on over.”
I open my doors for him. Come on in, crash here!
It bothers me that he didn’t invite me to the dinner. Like he’s just… using me. Do friends do that? I guess some friends do but good friends are open about that kind of relationship. With him, he has no idea that it bothers me that he doesn’t think of me much. I’m always last on the list when he wants someone to go eat dinner with him. Why?! “Yeah, I called everyone else to see if they wanted to go eat but they all already have dinner plans.” So now you’re alone and you want someone to eat with you? NOW you want me to dine with you? Fine, I’ll do it.
Sometimes I just love the guy so much and other times I just want to shove my feelings onto him: “Is that all you want of me? You only want me when you’re alone?!”
I don’t deserve a guy like this! But love him anyway, says the Lord.
So I will.
